Tuesday, September 23, 2008


I've been AWOL. And I'll probably be AWOL for some time still.

I've had to re-evaluate some things in my life, and sometimes there aren't enough hours in a day for one person to do everything. So I'm taking this quick opportunity to apologize to all of you. It's just one of those bumps in the road for me. I'll be back, but it might be awhile. I have a few medical issues to deal with first, and it involves a few major changes in my circumstances.

Over the next month, my job will take me away from home more than I want, and in between I have to pack up my house and store it. In the spring, I'll be making the move back up north to New England. The reasons are too long to list, but all of them lead to what's best for me, and I can't be any good for anyone else unless I'm at my best.

I can count on one hand the major life-changing events that have happened to me, and always my reaction is action. When life isn't right, change it. It has always worked for me, and in the end, I'm the one who has to live it, so it should be what I need and want. As a young adult, I did it as an aspect of my personality, and later I saw it was a good thing to accept change with such logic.

If I had only one wish in life, it would be that my daughters learn this bit of wisdom. It has helped me through the loss of loved ones, loss of security, and loss of health. Resistance to change and complacency is the path to destruction, IMHO. I've never been one to wallow in self-pity for long. I put the sadness and the pain some place where it can't hurt me, and move on. Over time, it becomes hidden away and leaves life open again for bigger and better things. We all feel pain over things that happen to us, and all it takes to overcome it, is an ability to hide it.

This is faith in its truest form I think. God holds out His hand and says, "I have given you free will to travel the path to your happiness, and I will carry you through it, even when you falter, for I love you no matter what." And I'll be holding on to that hand with all my might.

Ride safe, ride free, and ride with God.


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